The Route of the Exodus

Chapter 12
37 The Israelites journeyed from Rameses to Succoth.

Chapter 13
17 When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them onthe road through the Philistine country, though that was shorterFor God said, "If they face war, they might change their mindsand return to Egypt."18 So God led the people around by thedesert road toward the Red Sea.
20 After leaving Succoth they camped at Etham on the edge ofthe desert.

 

It was a dark evening

It was afternoon, when i was talking to yan regarding my work and experiences. I realised that i was in a few helpless situation, since IA, fyp and now, work.

I remembered in IA when the code that i wrote was already not really working fine, and when it did, my teammate's code got revamped by an expert and then worked 100 times faster than mine.

Then came to fyp, when i was just given the area of research, and then, from understanding it, buying equipment, learning matlab, coming up with a proposal, getting results, it was all me alone. It was a struggle. It was hard.

And now, i've been handed this software development. Get a software out, with backend server functions. With no one to help. With a deadline to meet. And i don't even know how to use flash. The analogy i gave yan was "If you simply call anyone to make a chair, he must learn the skills of a carpenter first, then the talk about how the chair could look like will be meaningful". I'm not a carpenter, and i don't have carpenter friends to teach me.

Second thing that i told yan was the important of appreciation to me. I'm not a useless guy who did nothing right. I guess i do need a pat on the back when i get some things right. Or even 就算沒功勞﹐也有苦勞。

Then came the meeting with my boss. I could understand his frustration. It wasn't his fault, i guess the main things was miscommunication or something like that. I got his idea wrongly. Then i came to conclude that all the work done in the past month or so was as good as down the drain. I need to redo. I need to get things done fast.

It suddenly made me feel very, very sad. I couldn't eat, couldn't do anything anymore that night. went to bed at 10pm, a few streaks of tears fell down. Perhaps this's life. I kept thinking yesterday, how can God help me, or what does God want me to learn. I didn't think long actually, just a while, i wanted rest.

I guess i'm better today. I have to learn to come to terms to what i'm up with. And i really need to buckle up too. This incident still hurts, but it gave me some thing to ponder still, even now, to think of what God want me to learn, to grow, to even cling on Him more.

stone pictures

 

Minutes to Fame HK contest in singapore

The contest commonly known as Chan Ho Yat Ding (pronunciation mine). Bernice and Joel was here at IMM 

A design for the jacket of CeMNet. Not sure about the response towards this one.
 

i'm sort of back now.

Past few days have been weird. Things change and quite some events happened...

Firstly, i went to the Expository Preaching by Dr. Rev Stephen Tong. It was good. The message was clear, all i need to do now is to stick to it... Be pure. It's hard, but by His grace and strength, i'm going to try....hard.

Monday, got the keys to the staff bungalow and ccf had their bbq there. Quite a number of people turned up. Went to the first class of HCI as well. That was an interesting class, seems that lecturer isn't really from that area as well. But he said that this is going to be a course where we talk about "how we feel", and assured us that it'll be an easy one.

The MT -kluang2 group had their gathering as well i suppose. Wondering how was it. Really a bit paiseh not to be there. Sorry guys.

Oh ya, i stayed at the staff bungalow as well, but didn't really mingle and do much. Since i slept at 3am the previous day trying to finish the classification game, i slept quite early on monday. The staff bungalow was nice. Huge place for only 20 dollars for the whole stretch from monday to friday morning.

Tuesday, it's a holiday. Got to wake up the guys still sleeping at the staff bungalow and clean up the place. As i got k session later =) This session was better. But i'm still thinking of it. Somehow it's not that nice, something is missing. Maybe we lack interaction. Probably we could arrange a whole/half day outing with k session in it next time.

After sending jingjing back to her room, it was 5pm already when i reached Clementi. Sunk into bed directly... only to be awaken for dinner by my housemates. Went for simple meal at the nearby coffee shop, then went to NTUC. This time i bought a few muesli bars, hopefully this time can really shed some pounds.

Speaking of pounds, i remembered the days when i used pounds to count/measure how much i weigh. Now everything is in KG. It's sad actually, to go away from the place and lifestyle and people from your younger days, knowing that most probably it's really goodbye.

Second night at the staff bungalow, called hc and fq along. Actually feel that they are only accompanying me since i have to sleep so early, a bit embaressed as well. haa...

Wednesday morning, no rushing for mrt, no queing for 179. It was nice. With some nice food for breakfast. Then i'm here, typing my blog, was reading thru a friend's blog, then realised that i have left this space empty too long. So i'm writing something here.

Hope that i'll get more going, a few pictures of the staff house maybe?

Have a nice day mate=)