Monday, May 29, 2006

A mixed up update

This has been long overdue i guess, but i'll try to update as much as i can. It's been a period of..
  • Taxi rides
  • Tigers, Apples and Mice
  • Struggles with work decisions
  • Struggles with sins
  • Patience, Truthfulness and Forgiveness
  • Lounge music,
  • and lastly, Red Bulls

Taxi Rides
Been going back home late, really very very frequently. Work has been really weighing my down. Actually i might as well stay in campus, but then, took a lot of taxi rides, which i don't really like to spend (but i like the rides, i guess) that much money on.

Tigers, Apples and Mice
What do they have in common? They are my test data. Images, to be exact, to let me see and classify them. Been testing out the system that i've build how to seperate Apple fruit from Apple juice, Apple Mac from Apple ipod ...you get the idea... Tiger woods from Tiger OS..

Struggling with work decisions
There has been mounting stress. Indeed. Been thinking, am i really suited for this? Am i fit for this work? Project officer? Research Engineer? Honestly speaking, i haven't been performing. The boss knows and shows from his expressions. And honestly, i just feel bad. It's not as if i've not been working. I've been working, until late hours. But not up to standard is still not up to standard. Need wisdom to know what will be my next step.

Struggling with sin
I wouldn't say it's a matter of fact issue. But, as the story goes, depression at work, feel bad, then the next minute you are sinning, enjoying but for a moment, then feeling blank and stupid the next. Dear God, i really needed out from this. I really need to obey the right Authority.

Patience, Truthfulness and Forgiveness
My first shot at leading the cell group in my Church (contrast the point above with this one. Well, i'm only trying to be truthful. After all, i'm a sick sinner). Patrick, Debbie, MZ and Elaine was in my group. Had a lively sharing, with some degree of openess too, to the problems we face in regards to patience, speaking the Truth and forgiving. Let's continue to grow, grow in Christlikeness.

Lounge music
Sort of revived my listening to relaxing, chill out, soft, jazzy lounge music. Bought a CD by Janet Seidel. Quite relaxing indeed.

Red Bulls
It has been the second can for me tonight. It's 215am now, still need to finish a bit of work before i doze off in a while (hopefully). People reading this please pray for me.

Well... that's more or less the bulk of things for now. Short i guess. although much has happened this week. Have a good day =)

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