There was, and still is, a sense of melancholy in me. Mostly when i see things in-retrospective.
Got updates and met a few not-so-old and long-time-never-meet friends. One is in die Schweiz. Seems his banking career is doing well. One is teaching music, with heaps of praises on him (talented lah...really, this guy). Then when i look back at myself, there is this sense of inferiority complex in me. In chinese, the phrase is 心理不平衡。
There is such a big gap, so big, that i feel amazingly useless. There's another story, it's regarding keys. I have this habit of misplacing my keys. Just did that two saturdays ago. Lost them. Duplicated a new pair. My housemate said that i never learn, which is true. And this is, in fact, a sad thing.
Suddenly i remember an old song from the past, from the past when i was still back in Penang, when brother have yet to go to US to study. He manage to get a full Scholarship to the US, then managed to get a Masters degree from the top varsity from the UK, now is lecturing in a College in KL. He listens to lots of songs, and he particularly liked Alanis Morissette. Here's a song sung by her,
"You Learn"
I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel freeThrow it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn
4 comments:
interesting arrangement of the lyrics. :)
sometimes i ask myself... am i made to be as "ambitious" or so achievement oriented as my older sister? obviously the answer is "no"...
but if God made me, there must be some earthly good, right?
keep discovering brother! you are gifted in your own ways. :)
glad you found the place to duplicate your keys.
Dear, so is it the day before we decided to make the "to-do-list"? Dear, I'm sorry... I'm always late, realising something in the past,imaging how you did get it through...I'm always 后知后觉...
Sometimes, I have the same feelings about myself too, useless, incapable,slacking...But when I'm at such state,dunno what I should do, the 1st person come to my mind that I can seek for help & sharing,the one who I can trust mostly, the man who I know he'll never refuse or despise me(unless special cases,ha...), is you, my dear... So no matter how bad you feel about yourself, please dear... Think about me, who needs you & who loves you...
You definitely have you gifts & blessings, just how much you've realised them & make good use of them... Dear, we start from zero,step by step,en? Let's follow the "to-do-list" & let's just do it. ;p
Ming,
Whatever you cannot understand, you cannot possess.
Johann W von Goethe
Ever think of why people keep making the same mistake? I guess probably many don’t understand what’s going wrong with them, and why they must do this correctly, what’s the issue with this matter?
Failure is success if we learn from it.
Malcolm S Forbes
So how do we learn from it? There is a boring but useful formula that I learnt through my profession. Specify the problem > Develop the solution >Monitor the experience, and I added 2 more points at the front and back, namely Be prepared to change! and... Never give up!
Change favors the prepared mind.
Louise Pasteur
The beginning is always today.
Mary Wollstonecraft
Most importantly…
Nobody can do it for you.
Ralph Cordiner
Let us keep trying...:)
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