Friday, September 01, 2006

好耐冇見..好久不见。。long time no see...

It's been a long time since my last posts. Very long.. if i'm not wrong the last post was done during May or so. Anyways...
It's been a roller coster period of time for me..times are hard. However, one thing i would like to share.
Have anyone tried online phycological tests? These tests are everywhere, you know, the test that tells you your type, tells you what kind of job is best for you, tells you what kind of person are you, tells you what kind of dress should you wear etc etc... mostly thru MCQ questions.
Would it be nice if these tests give you real and accurate descriptions of yourselves? Let's assume we have a test, and the test gives 100% correct results. I wonder what will our reactions be, when the test says:
You are a perfectionist. you always do your very best
in everything, you strive to give your 100% etc etc...
or when the test says:
You are a loser. You always do things half heartedly
and most of the time, you fail because etc etc...
Well, i'm here not actually to discuss this. This is kinda trivial i suppose. But what i gather after so long a time, so long a period.. A something/ a lesson/ a revelation i suppose, is:
You are a conflict avoider. You always try to
be Mr. Nice Guy, at whatever costs.
And i learned it the hard way that this is not good. You see, conflict avoidance doesn't mean that i'm a peace keeper, that i try to solve all problems thru "non-violent" ways. But rather, it's a suppresion of one's own view, due to certain fear regarding the outcome.
I wish i could use peace keeper as my tag. The Bible says "blessed are the peacekeepers, for they shall be called sons of God". But what kind of peace am i keeping? Superficial peace i guess. At the end of the day, It's peace based/ that have foundation on the Word of God that is important. Peace with God, and not peace on a surface level...
I'm learning. I guess i have been clearer on this character of mine, now i have to move on, and move out of this. May God guide us.
P.S. personally i don't feel this is a good post. The words and sentances are a bit too unflowing.

1 comment:

orange_ocean said...

Many ppl r same as u actually... a conflict avoider can also be blessed as he/she understands how to consider for others & control his/her expressions. The real peace is forever what we r trying to learn & achieve. God mercy us,as He has promise "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."